Midterms and Miscellaneous.

So midterms are just three days away....and I am wayyyyyy not happy about that. My religion midterm is going to kick my butt, big time. American Lit shouldn't be so bad, though, so maybe it will balance out.

Thankfully, my American History midterm is not until I get back from Spring Break. However, that means I actually will have to study for it OVER Spring Break....ahhh, such is life.

My religion teacher has also given us insane amounts of homework over Spring Break....loser.

ANYWAY, I will be home in three days. I am super stoked. I mean, I like school and all, but I love home so much more. Family, boyfriend, dogs....who could ask for anything better than all that in one place?? I submit that there is nothing better than that.

I am in the middle of doing religion reading (well, I was, but I decided to post on here, instead).

I was searching online devotions today, and came across one whose format I really liked. I will post it now.

The Word:
“Do not let your heart be troubled. You trust God. Now trust in Me.” John 14:1

Prayer:
Jesus, You call me to trust you. There are two issues that are really big here: pride and control.

#1Pride. I thought that having to ask for help and support would be a sign of weakness, a blow to my ego. I want to be like you, Jesus. But you never had to ask for help, did you? Then I’m reminded of Luke 23:26 where Simon followed you and carried your cross. To not ask for help is arrogance. To humble myself and ask is truly trusting you.

#2 Control. I know I’m supposed to leave the consequences up to you, God. I need to just trust and obey. But I feel I need to direct the outcome or else someone else will. Perhaps it will be the world or some ungodly person. But the wrath of man does not produce the righteousness of God. Help me let go of control! I need to see and trust you as a sovereign and good God who is in control.

Help me walk by trust, not by sight or my pride and control.

Act of Devotion:
What is the biggest thing in your life right now that you need to trust God with? What will it take for you to give it up to Him?

So there is my devotion for today. I think it's rather apropos, don't you??

Live, Laugh, Love, Vote Clinton.

Much Love,

<3 Becca

Musings.

Okay, so my thoughts for today:

1.) I hate rain. Rain = pain. I can't type a lot right now because I took one of my muscle relaxers and am still a little bit out of it.

2.) I abso-freakin-lutely can't wait until my midterms are over Friday and I get to go home for spring break.

3.) I really like Ernest Hemingway.

4.) I have the best damn boyfriend on the face of the planet, and then some. Hands down.

That is all.

Peace, Love, and Tofu.

<3>

Procrastination and Fields of Gold.

Hello all.

All....yeah....that's a riot....there are only like, two people who read this anyway....maybe only one.

ANYWAY

So I should totally be doing homework right now....ahh well, it happens. (Or doesn't happen).

I have been listening to Eva Cassidy's version of "Fields of Gold" on repeat for about an hour, give or take 10 minutes. It brings back a lot of good memories. As at least one of you knows (mom), I have an emotional attachment to this song, because Michelle Kwan skated to it at the 2002 Olympic exhibitions. Wow....I can't believe that was over 6 years ago....time has gone so fast. I remember one night, in particular, as soon as the 2002 Olympics were ending, and I was getting my shower ready, I thought to myself, "I will be 17 the next time the Winter Olympics come around." Seriously, I remember thinking that to myself, perfectly clear as if it were just yesterday. I thought to myself also, "Michelle will DEFINITELY win in 2006." Well....two years have come and gone since the 06 Olympics in Turino, Italy. I was 17, and Michelle did not win. She did not even get to compete due to a stupid injury. She is now a student at the University of Colorado at Denver, and will probably not be in the competitive scene for figure skating anymore. Listening to the aforementioned song today has brought up the memories of her competitive skating days....in particular when I saw her skate at the Champions on Ice tour show at Rupp Arena in Lexington on May 24, 2002. That was also the night I got to meet her, which I still say is one of the happiest nights of my life up to this point. I am sure happier times are to some, and have come, but that is right up there toward the top.

I have grown so much since then. I'm 6 years older and 20 years wiser, it seems. A lot has happened since then, none of which I would take back for anything, and some of which I want to preserve forever. Mainly, though, I just miss being as carefree as I was back then. Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't change my life right now for anything, but I just wish I had the same happy-go-lucky attitude as I had wayyyy back in 02.

Wow....I started out writing this blog just thinking I was just going to briefly mention that I was listening to Fields of Gold and then move on. Oh well....so much for that. Life is full of unexpected twists and turns, and although the subject of this blog is seemingly insignificant, it is one of them, indeed.

That is all I have for now.

Much Love,

<3 Becca