Midterms and Miscellaneous.

So midterms are just three days away....and I am wayyyyyy not happy about that. My religion midterm is going to kick my butt, big time. American Lit shouldn't be so bad, though, so maybe it will balance out.

Thankfully, my American History midterm is not until I get back from Spring Break. However, that means I actually will have to study for it OVER Spring Break....ahhh, such is life.

My religion teacher has also given us insane amounts of homework over Spring Break....loser.

ANYWAY, I will be home in three days. I am super stoked. I mean, I like school and all, but I love home so much more. Family, boyfriend, dogs....who could ask for anything better than all that in one place?? I submit that there is nothing better than that.

I am in the middle of doing religion reading (well, I was, but I decided to post on here, instead).

I was searching online devotions today, and came across one whose format I really liked. I will post it now.

The Word:
“Do not let your heart be troubled. You trust God. Now trust in Me.” John 14:1

Prayer:
Jesus, You call me to trust you. There are two issues that are really big here: pride and control.

#1Pride. I thought that having to ask for help and support would be a sign of weakness, a blow to my ego. I want to be like you, Jesus. But you never had to ask for help, did you? Then I’m reminded of Luke 23:26 where Simon followed you and carried your cross. To not ask for help is arrogance. To humble myself and ask is truly trusting you.

#2 Control. I know I’m supposed to leave the consequences up to you, God. I need to just trust and obey. But I feel I need to direct the outcome or else someone else will. Perhaps it will be the world or some ungodly person. But the wrath of man does not produce the righteousness of God. Help me let go of control! I need to see and trust you as a sovereign and good God who is in control.

Help me walk by trust, not by sight or my pride and control.

Act of Devotion:
What is the biggest thing in your life right now that you need to trust God with? What will it take for you to give it up to Him?

So there is my devotion for today. I think it's rather apropos, don't you??

Live, Laugh, Love, Vote Clinton.

Much Love,

<3 Becca

Musings.

Okay, so my thoughts for today:

1.) I hate rain. Rain = pain. I can't type a lot right now because I took one of my muscle relaxers and am still a little bit out of it.

2.) I abso-freakin-lutely can't wait until my midterms are over Friday and I get to go home for spring break.

3.) I really like Ernest Hemingway.

4.) I have the best damn boyfriend on the face of the planet, and then some. Hands down.

That is all.

Peace, Love, and Tofu.

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Procrastination and Fields of Gold.

Hello all.

All....yeah....that's a riot....there are only like, two people who read this anyway....maybe only one.

ANYWAY

So I should totally be doing homework right now....ahh well, it happens. (Or doesn't happen).

I have been listening to Eva Cassidy's version of "Fields of Gold" on repeat for about an hour, give or take 10 minutes. It brings back a lot of good memories. As at least one of you knows (mom), I have an emotional attachment to this song, because Michelle Kwan skated to it at the 2002 Olympic exhibitions. Wow....I can't believe that was over 6 years ago....time has gone so fast. I remember one night, in particular, as soon as the 2002 Olympics were ending, and I was getting my shower ready, I thought to myself, "I will be 17 the next time the Winter Olympics come around." Seriously, I remember thinking that to myself, perfectly clear as if it were just yesterday. I thought to myself also, "Michelle will DEFINITELY win in 2006." Well....two years have come and gone since the 06 Olympics in Turino, Italy. I was 17, and Michelle did not win. She did not even get to compete due to a stupid injury. She is now a student at the University of Colorado at Denver, and will probably not be in the competitive scene for figure skating anymore. Listening to the aforementioned song today has brought up the memories of her competitive skating days....in particular when I saw her skate at the Champions on Ice tour show at Rupp Arena in Lexington on May 24, 2002. That was also the night I got to meet her, which I still say is one of the happiest nights of my life up to this point. I am sure happier times are to some, and have come, but that is right up there toward the top.

I have grown so much since then. I'm 6 years older and 20 years wiser, it seems. A lot has happened since then, none of which I would take back for anything, and some of which I want to preserve forever. Mainly, though, I just miss being as carefree as I was back then. Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't change my life right now for anything, but I just wish I had the same happy-go-lucky attitude as I had wayyyy back in 02.

Wow....I started out writing this blog just thinking I was just going to briefly mention that I was listening to Fields of Gold and then move on. Oh well....so much for that. Life is full of unexpected twists and turns, and although the subject of this blog is seemingly insignificant, it is one of them, indeed.

That is all I have for now.

Much Love,

<3 Becca

Okay, so I lied. I didn't post a decent length blog when I said I was going to. Oh well, life happens.

Today is the first day of National Eating Disorders Awareness Week....I am soooooo stoked!!!!
A little stressed out, but stoked all the same. Tonight we are kicking off the week with a vigil at 10:30 to honor those who have lost their lives to or who are struggling/have struggled with an eating disorder. Julie, Jamison, and I are all going to give a 5ish minute talk. I think I'm going to open and close mine with a Bible verse. We shall see. I'm getting ready to write it now, actually....wish me luck!!

We spent an hour and a half today hanging up posters and putting all the fliers on all the tables, etc. We got the table tents put up in Cowan (thanks to Tammy), and our tables with fliers and brochures are totally kickass. We are just kickass girls. Seriously, we are so incredibly awesome. We don't care what anybody has to say about it, and we don't care if anybody ELSE recognizes our awesomeness, because WE realize it, and we have worked our butts off to get all this together. It is going to be an AMAZING week. Filled with stress, yes, but it is still going to be amazing. Like really, uh-mazing.

And the convo on Tuesday, well, it's goin got be pretty awesome, too. It's going to be given by a dietician, Tina Thompson, and afterward we are going to have a student panel (consisting of Julie, Jamison, and me) to answer audience members' questions. Should be verrrrrry interesting.

Okay, that's all I've got time to write for now....I have to get to work on my vigil speech and homework....so much to do so little time!!!!

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Late Night, Short Post, More Tomorrow.

Just a short note to say I will be writing a decent-length blog tomorrow....I am so beat right now....

Another short note: We had Jesus with sprinkles tonight....fun was had by all.

Another Another short note: I am getting to go eat dinner with my cousin tomorrow night (I guess technically tonight), and I am totally stoked.

Another Another Another short note: I CAN'T WAIT for Saturday.

Another Another An-------- A complaint: I don't see why my religion professor clearly makes his disdain for Christians a topic so frequently discussed in class. We are here to LEARN FACTS, not listen to your opinions of how stupid and uneducated we Christians are. Bro. Harold Cathey could totally take you....bring it on.

I spent a grand total of 8-9 hours studying today....someone shoot me, now, please.

Night, All.

Much Love,

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Back to the grindstone....Another Monday, Another Week.

Okay, so I've got another Monday under my belt. Well, almost. I'm practically finished with today, because I don't have any more classes, but more homework looms ahead in the night.

I'm a little freaked out right now....phones are acting screwy....and all of my messages have mysteriously disappeared from my outbox....you may be asking yourself, "What's so strange about that?" and I will, in fact, tell you.

1.) I called Rog today and his phone didn't ring....seconds were elapsing on my phone, but his wasn't ringing, so I hung up my end and called him again. It rang this time, but he didn't answer (I later found out he had been on the phone with someone else), so I left a voicemail. He called me back like 2 minutes later, and I had assumed he had gotten my voicemail....but this was not the case. He thought something was wrong with me, because he got a text message from my number that said "PLEASE CALL". At face value, there is nothing that seems strange about that, but the thing is, I hadn't sent the message. He double checked to see if it was, in fact, from me, and yeah, it said it was from my name and number. Weeiiiiirrrrrrrdddd....because then I checked my outbox, and all of my outgoing messages had been erased. Now, I don't make a practice of deleting any of my text messages. Actually, I don't EVER delete ANY messages at ALL....which makes this scenario even weirder.

So what is going on here?? I'm a little spooked....whether I should be, or not. I am definitely a little shaken, as anyone who knows me can understand, because I get scared really easily. While some may chalk up this little occurrence to some weird mixed signals/crossed lines thing, I'm not so easily convinced. It all seems too weird to me....I guess it's sort of like the age-old question, "How many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop?" And of course, the answer is, "The world my never know."

I think I'm going to go work on the NEDAW flyers....we're having a meeting during common hour on Thursday so I feel like I should have SOMETHING accomplished.

Much Love and God Bless,

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School Daze....

Getting ready to go to class, and I can barely keep my eyes open. I need to go to the doctor to see if he can prescribe me some heavy duty sleep meds so I don't have anymore of these (nearly) sleepless nights. It's seriously getting old.

Am lit time....post more later, I'm sure.

Much Love and God Bless,

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Time for Another....

Okay, so I'm writing a new post, yet again, when I should be doing my religion homework. =/

Not much has happened since I wrote my last blog yesterday. I've had several downs since then, but I'm trying to keep everything in perspective and look at this situation as a "blessing in disguise," although I'm really struggling to see the blessing right now. Maybe it will get better soon....I can only hope so.

::EDIT::
No longer going hiking. Looks like I'm doing homework all day.
::EDIT::

I was up into the wee hours of the morning last night....2:15ish....which is wayyyyyy past my bedtime. I think I probably didn't get tired before then because I had had a bottle of DMD earlier in the day. Still, though, I wouldn't think the caffeine would last THAT long....that would be, like 8 hours....totally crazy. But until yesterday I hadn't had caffeine for a long while, so it very well could have lasted that long.

I'm really in the mood to watch "The Cutting Edge," but unfortunately I have to do my stupid work. We are not allowed to have fun at Centre College. We must do work....all the time....zero fun sir. Okay, okay, that's a lie....we have fun here, of course, but this weekend has been filled with nothing but reading, reading, reading, and reading for my classes tomorrow and Tuesday. I have a feeling this is going to become the story of my life this semester....I am going to do nothing but read what is assigned to me. I think I have said something similar to that in a blog before, but I'm saying it again, so there. =)

I really want to go home for a few days....Each time I come back I enjoy it less and less because I really want to be at home. That's not to say I don't like it here, because I totally do, but I just think I would be happier if I could stay at home. Maybe I'm just convincing myself of that because I'm not making any new friends........and I know that my family will always be there at home for me, as well as the boyfriend, and I just long for home sometimes....obviously, this is one of those times.

With that said, I wouldn't go to college anywhere but here. Sure, it's really, really hard, and sure, I don't get to do a lot outside of schoolwork, but I honestly think this is the best school in the south and one of the best in the nation. I can't wait to graduate from here and say, "Hey, I have a degree from Centre College." Yeah, that will be a proud day. =)

Okay, I've rambled enough....time to get back to work.

Much Love and God Bless,

<3 Becca